autograph session

The autographs from Apocalyptica. Mikko, Perttu, Eicca & Paavo. A following concert.

...they made it special.
Still walking around with a fat, permanent grin.
I wish i'd never forget this day, not even a single detail.
<3

obscenity

obscenty saves mankind.


yaaaaiiyy i'm drunk x)

tickets for apocalyptica :)))

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Rain. Whimsically depressing rain.. I'm waiting for my rebirth.
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to do list of today:
drinking at least 5 cups of coffee with Moon [x]
confounding sugar and salt on my scrambled egg [x]
halfway falling from a chair caused by fatigue [x]
drawing a few lines [ ]
smoking some L&M Night [x]
going to look at baby-cats :3 [x]
downloading some 'Combichrist' stuff [x]
having a bad guitar-day -.- [x]
being pissed off xD [x]
taking a piss [x]
going to sleep <3 [ ]

^^an almost fullfilled day, so you could say.

G'night


P.s. Yesterday we bought tickets for Apocalyptica! 28th of october, cologne, waaaaaaah I'm so keenly looking forward to it x3333333
p.p.s. And yeah, Perttu's hopefully always playin' shirtless...
;D

main theme: jackiiiiiiiiiiiiieeeeeeeeee rulez

O this heat...
it's incredible...NOT. O.o
fuck ey, u know this movie, 'the heatwave - nobody can escape'? Well, saw it a few weeks ago, badly screwed movie, but now it seems like some foreshadowing to these days. wah i already said it while watching this shit, ask my mom, haha.
Woo Moon came in naked and yeah now i've forgotten what i wanted to write, fuck. 1 moment.
...it was something nice, exceptionally. Hah, yeah know it again.
I'm convinced to learn finnish again! There's a wonderful, but after some time though enervating song by 'Nightwish' which name i currently forgot (no, nobody is naked any longer x) ). The sound, how the singer pronounces every syllable, just is beyond words. Finnish by her somehow sounds elf-like, as elf-like as a human language can sound i think (= Or, spoken by Alexi eg. in a completly different, hard way, as keen and prurient as a human can sound. God, that's true.
Huh, with that thoughts i'm goin to have shower, come in naked and sleep too C:
Tomorrow's my brother's birthday, by the way.

g'night <3

p.s.: Jackie Chan rules!! (x

Timeless

Hello again. Just after a few days, what a marvel O.o
and of course just cuz i want to lament a bit... oh humans are so disgusting, hehe xD

whatever. Just one thing. I want TIME!
It's just a nightmare u know, just had 3 hours of sleep last night, then nearly died by the extremly overtired fear of a silly, not existing burglar, no time for my guitar t'day, no time for my so longed for writing...yeah and now going to bed. To at least physically endure the tomorrow-day....argh.
Hallow the holidays, suckers, they're near <3

g'night

R.I.P. #2

Paul Dedrick Gray, number 2, was the bassist for 'Slipknot' since their creation.
Today I had to find out that he was found dead on may, 24th in a hotel in Iowa.


...It's so hard to believe. I mean, he never was the biggest ideal for me in personal, nor did i have a too personal relation to him or something like that.
But he did create a big part of the music which accompanied me a time, which can be seen relatively as long or even short, but this doesn't matter. The only thing that does matter is, that his music meant something to me, and so will accompany me forever - in some way.
I want to dignify him; for that he'll never be forgotten. And the only thinkable way for me to fulfill the remembrance of Paul Gray condignly will be the creation of his mask. And so it will be done...

In memoriam.

puns

u.u Neil Perry is haunting inside my spirit...
haha such a nice pun. Just look up 'spirit' and u know what i mean. x)

nothing important these times...
Once again usurped this so to say "fuck-it-attitude" ....and it works better with this. like when you have to decide if to add some extraextra notes for your latest curve sketching and shit like that or instead to play the guitar a little while and smoke an evening-cigarette.
These are the faint (oooh and again a pun :3) differences. xD
they mend your day.

what do we fight for?

So...enervating times these days. There's just too much time fucked up by school and shit like that, every day goes by with nothing important to be happened...i even hadn't just one minute for my guitar! (besides there's just a crappy wasp in my room which really scares my ass of...but that's not the point.^^)
it's like being semi-somnolent the whole day..
Just want to feel pure again.
"Now make some fuckin noise if you're alive, man!" yea,not sure if i can at the moment.
Spit it out. 9.0 live. Woah. That's elixir. my time..... i don't want it to run out ever.
spit it out and then jump it up, everything, to the highest euphorie...
ah i'm confused.
i need someone. it would be a dream to have this, both, everything.
and then to never loose anything.


why does this seem to be impossible, not just for me?
what do we fight for, i don't know.


really have to talk to her after that. how the hell is a writing able to make me so irate and desperate? it made me cry. talking would be the better way than just gettin' everything from this fuckass bloggerthing.



...got new handkerchiefs. 95 cents. You can see them on the picture, they're extremly hot, aren't they??

overtired

our heater surprisingly broke down. i puked cuz of some shitass virus. and i'm tired.
^^all things that made the last days a bit worse than they could've been, but it's ok.

Going to Vienna tomorrow, I am really looking forward it, cuz it seems to be such an aesthetic and epic city..
<3
g'night

p.s. to Moon: you'll never guess that, i'm sure that anti-illness drawing has worked: i ate something today O.o nearly half a plate and without puking after it! xD nearly a wonder. i fear there are no puking-stories from the car for you tomorrow :/
<3

waaaaankers!!

uuh, i definitly was off here for too long... already dreaded that my marihuana-fish would die by hunger :S

some things to say.
I had been on some demo with some friends yesterday... briefly something like 'political leftists against nationalists and shit like that'. really felt good to be on the streets. I mean... nowadays it's one of the few ways to get committed to your firm conviction, and in issues like that it's fuckin important! and this presenter-woman was awesome... alltogether she was factual, collected and although energetic at the same time. xD but when this shit ass guys began to raise compulsory prohibited(!!) flags without the police to do anything, she lost it and shouted as loud as she could 'WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAANKERS!!!!!!!!!' over the river through the micro. As i said, just an awesome woman! =)
also felt great to do something with our 'good old friend' again.^^ every time we're with him something weird happens...like grass on the breast or shit like that xDD
And nearly hat an ecxess of smoke cuz of this fuckin demo... you just are not able to withstand while being there..

fuck, had an amount of things in my mind but now evrything's gone.. o dear.

I'm invited to her dad's birthday meal. That's an incredible honour for me, to be there as 'second family' :3 It's so sweet. Really have to get that cd complete for them, to leastwise give a little back. C:

Think I'll go now and try to get down the solo from 'Free Fall'. In Flames. huiii! (= It's times to heavy for me an' i know that... yeah but i'll give it a try. Then we'll record the whole thing this eve' with bass and guitar..
haha this will at least take ages^^^^^^
i'll need to create an extra striking version of french toast to jolly us along (-.- disgusting word...).
whatever.

just one thing for the end.
I firstly read your blog after weeks..
I'm not unhappy, please, don't think that. <3


*Hope

songtext finished.................

Friend's birthday today, nearly died from hugging that much xD
We were at her house (where you're allowed to have a smoke INSIDE the rooms!) and spent a day of gambling, tuning a seemingly centenarian acoustic guitar and shit like that. It was fuckin nice most of the time.
It was just that they began to somehow compare me with her. Like 'you nearly smell like her' and things. It's hard to express but the whole thing somehow gave me the feeling of not being on my own but just being kinda addition. Or something like that. And that's really annoying. Yeah i know.... probably again overestimated everything... but anyways she isn't to blame for something, cuz she didn't do anything but just is there, about what i'm more than happy...and i neither am, cuz i didn't build thoughts like that on purpose -.- my stupid mind....
Yeah, whatever.

Finally brought first songtext to a termination. am indescribably satisfied cuz it somehow is fuckin exhausting to alyway have it's weird, unfinished fragments in your mind. xD So far. 'm not sure yet if i'll post it or not..perhaps in the neyt days or so...or just someday.. hm, we'll see ^__________________________^
g'night

daily routine

So carnival is finally over i think. School continues. Albeit i had a good time, i'm satisfied it's over...this whole show pisses me of.
Otherwise this atmosphere of drunkenness all-around is quite amusing :D if you yourself are taking part ...thought to mention one example but ...perhaps it's really better to not do^^
Whatever.
Smoked my first cigar yesterday...yeah, a real fat, round, brown cigar (=
was much better than i thought, it nearly tasted like a ordinary butt, just a hint more bitter. And it's so classy! xD

Well, that's it already... am going to have shower now. It's gonna be funny cuz i again got such a fuckin muscle ache that i'll not able to raise my arms..

So, just one more hint for having a better day: Watch Children of Bodoms "Chaos Ridden Years - Stockholm Knockout Live DVD" on a huuuuuge huge fuckin huuuge screen. It's effective, trust me... O.ô
xD but pssshhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh......it's a secret.
g' night

Hope <3

combichrist - this shit will fuck you up

So many things have happened and i always felt like writing about them here...but somehow i never took time for that. Everythings cleared without cryin out eyes here so i'll neither bedevil me nor somebody else with this now 'old' problems xD Which are timely just one day old, but perceived they're gone since decades . And it's good like that i think.
Just this one guy is pissing me of like hell, telling me I'm only capable for playin one accord for the whole song...and yeah, i fully agree... it's sounds just awesome to have one continuous accord! Why the hell hadn't this come to anyones mind earlier?! It's like brilliant!! Cocksucker...
Whatever. Had undertook to practice like crazy in near future.

Had been in 'Kultkeller' yesterday again...it wasn't the for first time, but something fuckin weird happened this time......I all of sudden became a fan of industrial music O.ô .Just downloaded something from 'Combichrist' and it's pretty nice. Also wished to be able to dance industrial like hell...xD likely it's just a phase lasting one or two weeks...but yeah we'll see...^^

Since this weekend was that alcoholic and ...äh stayin up all night-lasting, I'm fuckin tired right now... but yeah, i've to endure this cuz it's not over yet ;D
Good evening to everyone.

Hope <3

fascinated by the word 'albeit' ...

I'm tired. And I'm so fuckin bothered by this blogthing cuz i just don't get along with it...will have to ask my friend to do the layout and everything. It will take long 'til everything is on the right place as i want it, too perfectionist sometimes.
Nevertheless, I'm kinda content with finally having this done, after arguing with myself for such a long time about it and never being really convinced. Yeah, had never thought to have a blog like this. But albeit (haha crazy word, just read it for first time^^) the sense may never fuckin come to my mind, my english will improve a little... i guess.

Well, the important will be written at another time. =)
Thank you for sharing your time with me.

Hope <3